I’ve had just a profound realization realizing that even though I wanted to commit physical suicide, I had been committing emotional suicide so many days of my life, and basing my happiness on things outside of myself.
And what I realized in that experience and the deepest gift in all of it was that I had an opportunity to change my relationship to life. And what I ended up doing is just starting to re-route my thoughts and my attention to the gifts, to the abundance, to the love that I was experiencing on a daily basis.
And it felt like they were little things at the time, but I felt relief in my system from that I felt the relief from my depression. And I just noticed it felt like little energetic bread crumbs getting dropped for me and I kept feeling these insights, and incredible people coming into my experience. And things just started to get better and I started to feel relief and every day it’s a practice for me; I know that the most incredible tool I have is my perception, and the way that I look at life, and I know that the greatest gift that I have found is to appreciate and to love what is.
And I know that the more I do that, the more incredible abundance comes into my experience; to practice every single day I continue to remind myself of my priceless nature, I’ve had other experiences as a **** that have always tended to remind me of what’s truly valuable in my life and I’m always taught this through the energy of money, and the times that I’m experiencing the greatest lack or what I perceive as lack, I know that I just have gotten sloppy in the way that I’m looking at my life and I’ve forgotten what is truly valuable and all the love and connection that I do have.
So I would say that the greatest gift that I have given myself and I can continue to share with others is the importance of placing my attention on what is working in my life, placing my attention on what I appreciate, and the more that I’ve done that, the more that I attract just amazing abundance and appreciation, and love into my experience. That’s an ongoing practice for me.